Baby Feelings

I want to say that with Xander as my first baby, I was more overprotective, more prone to emotional ups and downs, and more sentimental. But I've been very protective of Nick up to about 6 months old, and now am only slightly overprotective of him. ;) I had my months of high anxiety and paranoia with Nick, but at least I cry less frequently at commercials and pour in the right amount of laundry detergent instead of stupidly standing at the washing machine letting the detergent pour out, and out, and out, and out (like I did when I was pregnant with Xander). Sentimental? I don't know. I feel like I relax and laugh more with Nick...but I laughed a lot with baby Xander and danced around rooms with him and in a carefree manner brought him everywhere with me. Today I wrote something in Nick's baby book and added the editorial note, "it's precious and wonderful." That's something I would have written back in baby Xander days. I guess my conclusion is that the feelings and experiences are the same, I just don't obsess about every moment and every decision like I did with Xander. And that's not true at all. I just don't notice how I'm obsessing with so much going on. I just don't recognize the brain mush while it takes me two hours to upload some photos. I choose not to remember how I got a sore throat from holding back the wailing sobs while watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button at the theater with Erik, pregnant with Nick. I've almost entirely glossed over the way tears streamed down my cheeks at Christmas when Leslie showed us the video of the two men who had a pet lion and released it back into the wild.